A song of transcendent beauty, the melody based upon Chopin's Étude Op. 10, No. 3. It was a hit in 1950 for one of the loveliest voices of all time, and a favorite of your Head Trucker's: Miss Jo Stafford.
My late husband was a past master of the piano as well as the organ, and this lovely piece - a favorite of his - is one I have listened to many times in his memory since I lost him seven years ago today.
My Cody won the Texas Piano Guild competion when he was 15, and placed sixth in the nationals. Although he preferred the organ because its complexity was more challenging - he went on to obtain a bachelor's in organ, with minor in harpsichord - he could play the piano like nobody's business. Just like this.
One of his old piano teachers played this nocturne at his funeral, and it sounded to me as if Cody himself were playing. This (by some other artist than the one in the video) was one of a handful of recordings I played over and over again in the weeks and months after his death.
Music was his great passion, his raison d'etre. It brought me great comfort to think of him playing more and more glorious music somewhere, unimpeded by the limitations of this mortal coil. He used to complain that it was very difficult to master a piece by Chopin or Liszt - they must have had such huge hands! he would say. But he was a cowboy too, and master them he did.
Five years ago today, I awoke a widower. That awful day.
It's hard to believe five years have gone by already. We had only a little more than five years together.
A great loss; but better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all, as Tennyson said. And I know that Cody loved me: something no one can ever take away from me.
The cosmic irony is that we both had already loved and lost before, one way or another. And when we found each other, at rather a late age, we neither of us dreamed that fate could be so cruel to us again, so soon.
But it was that cruel.
Or yet should I say, fate was that kind: to allow us both a time of love and healing, of comfort and joy, before the dark waters parted us again.
I'm not writing to gain anyone's sympathy here; the time for all that is long past now.
I'm just sharing a lovely memory, which sustains me to this day. And the lesson that all in this life is temporary. All of it.
So enjoy what you have, whether little or much - enjoy it today, fellas, and be grateful for it. Because you never know what smiles or tears the morrow will bring.
Cody at our first meeting in New Orleans, November 1998.
Lord, make me an instrument of your peace. Where there is hatred, let me sow love; where there is injury, pardon; where there is discord, harmony; where there is doubt, faith; where there is despair, hope; where there is darkness, light; where there is sadness, joy. Grant that I may seek not so much to be consoled as to console; to be understood as to understand; to be loved as to love. For it is in giving that we receive; it is in pardoning that we are pardoned; and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life. Amen.
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We cannot all do great things, but we can do small things with great love.
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Churches say that the expression of love in a heterosexual monogamous relationship includes the physical, the touching, embracing, kissing, the genital act - the totality of our love makes each of us grow to become increasingly godlike and compassionate. If this is so for the heterosexual, what earthly reason have we to say that it is not the case with the homosexual?
It is a perversion if you say to me that a person chooses to be homosexual. You must be crazy to choose a way of life that exposes you to a kind of hatred. It's like saying you choose to be black in a race-infected society.
If God, as they say, is homophobic, I wouldn't worship that God.